Issue 34: Shedding

Oooof this one is a hard one to write. My jaw and my stomach are clenched typing out these words. 

I have been getting messages about shedding and I dont wannnnnaaaa. 

A couple of weeks ago I had a dream that hundreds of brown/green caterpillars were crawling over me. I would wipe them off and then find more on another part of my body. I was wiping away without much success. I was getting more and more desperate when I woke myself up.  

What do you think it means?! 

I looked it up the next day and I found so many interpretations about growth and transformation. And my response was basically, que grooooossss.

When I asked my friend Kiki to interpret, this is what she responded,

You're about to enter a cocoon-like state… where you are going to come out on the other side transformed. Whatever that cocoon looks like for you, it's asking you to shed something, like to release something old before this new comes in, before you can do so. It has a really big attachment on you… whatever this is that is being asked to release… and for some reason you're not like letting go of it. 

Shed so that you can enter into your next transformation, into your next space of life.

My urge is still to say I don’t wannnna. 

What is my resistance?

This is not the first time that I received a similar message. Before I told her about my dream Kiki had shared a post:

“the spiritual path isn't inherently lonely. But the in-between can feel like it. That space where the old self dissolves and the new self hasn't fully landed. That's the wobble. The recalibration. Your nervous system searching for familiar ground while your brain updates the internal map it used for safety.

Your system is learning a new rhythm, and the people around you are adjusting to it too. Can you stay with yourself (and with them) while everything reorients?”

Connect with Kiki for any spiritual guidance. She is also in the in between of listening to the messages and answering her calling. 

Honestly, there are so many things I could potentially be being asked to shed and also I do not have much clarity about which of these I am supposed to. Sometimes I do, but honestly it’s a lot. Is it this? Is it that? Could it be this? Tal vez esto. 

Is everyone being asked to do this, or is it…

Just me.

Qué bien. 

Can I identify/learn this new rhythm?

Can I let everything reorients? 

Can I bring people with me? 

In confirmation I pulled a card about growth and transformation. 

The algorithm also did it's thing and started showing me a bunch of posts about 2025 being the year of Snake. How is it that we are in December and I am for the first “hearing” this? They keep saying that as this year comes to a close we must shed so that we may embrace 2026. 

Yuck. 

I am being asked (or yelled at) to sit in stillness, release and to shed. 

So I have spent the week kicking and screaming. The Aquarius in me and the Nicaraguan in me does not go out without a fight. (Pero, like, what am I fighting?)

It’s a few days later, early Saturday (an hour in actually), and the baby woke me up. As I lay awake trying to fall back asleep, I reflected on shedding.

My son’s name came in a prayer, in a dream that I had been having even before I became pregnant. Multiple nights, I came face to face with a hissing serpent. I would force myself awake out of a deep fear response. 

She came again in the first dream that I had after his birth, it was only after labor, that I felt brave enough to stay with her long enough to learn that she was a guide and that she had been protecting the (my) lineage all along. 

I came to in the hospital bed, looked at my husband, and I told him that our son’s name was Amaru, not knowing the meaning, he looked it up, the Great Serpent. 

His birth required me to shed so much of my old self. The shedding that he brought has allowed for rebirth and for this variation of my medicine that you have been receiving to come through. 

This realization removes all the hesitation and replaces it with so much love and willingness. 

If I must shed, I shall do it as the serpent does, for growth and expansion.    

I will do so and I will allow others to bear witness and accompany me. 

Te invito; we will be Walking Backwards in less than two weeks. 

P.S. I got to be part of my first inipi ceremony later that day. I prayed to be more willing in my release. 

Thank you dear Wendy for always answering the call to walk with the ancestor spirits together.